Biten By His Love

No one has seen God at any time. If we LOVE one another, GOD abides in us, and HIS LOVE has been perfected in us.  1 John 4:12


God in His mercy has allowed me to travel the world since the age of 17 years old.  I have seen many things and met many, many, many wonderful people from various cultures.  Because I started traveling at such a young age I sort of took it for granted and I missed the beauty of what God was showing me about myself and others.  Life passed me by for so many years because of my extreme selfishness and greed.  I have not forgotten my many journeys, but I am unable to articulate what I saw and felt.

Since I have started my Jubilee Journey I have opened my heart to take life more seriously and to truly bring my heart and mind before the Lord on a daily basis.  I am learning that my life is not about me at all.  His love has bitten me in a way I would have never imagined.  I have never known love like this.

First of all to think that He first loved me enough to prepare the way for me to receive His love into my selfish heart one day…..it blows my mind!


Now all I can think about is reaching out beyond myself and sharing the love of Jesus with other people.  I think about my girls (daughters) in Kenya every single day.  Just in one village alone, there are over 2000 orphans who simply need someone to love them.  James 1:27 is my mission in life and I pray every day for strength from Heaven to do all that is within me to pray, reach, teach and love them.

I have had the honor of meeting so many wonderful people during my art exhibits and people really do care and they want to hear about the mission and what is going on in other nations.


PLEASE pray with me that people who see my blogs, website and FB page will reach beyond themselves and GIVE.  Even if its $5 or $5000.00, every dime helps.  The needs are so great right now and God has blessed us to live in a very blessed nation and WE can make a difference when we work together.

PLEASE go to my website:  http://www.POEMixedMediaArt.com and make a donation today.  I must return to Nairobi, Kenya by mid-December 2014 in order to secure the land and build homes for these beautiful young girls.

I have been bitten by His love.

Eseosa Rain

A Surface Reality

These words have been in my spirit for three months now and I finally decided to entertain them as I lay in bed with a migraine headache. The words “A Surface Reality”……..As a woman of God, lover of Jesus and full of His Holy Spirit, when I hear words or sense things in my heart, I know that my Heavenly Father wants to talk to me. Its just a matter of being still long enough and opening up my heart to listen and receive.

Sometimes I have the most difficult time just being still. I live in a world and environment where its constant movement and everyone going “no where” fast.

The Word of God says that “life is a vapor”, what if I really believe this word. What if I wake up with this word at the forefront of my mind each day; what if I intentionally pursued a deeper relationship and encounter with my Creator, the LORD of my life.

Living a “surface reality” is easy because we don’t have to do any inner self examination or seek the truth about who we really are. We can wear various masks depending on who we are interacting with at the time.

A surface reality is a “false truth”.


Since I began this wonderful journey I have been through many trying times, but the trying times forced me to remove the many masks I have worn over the years in order to survive.

God in His mercy introduced me to the world of art 2.5 years ago and my life has not been the same.

The piece above is called “Taking Off The Mask” and it is one of my favorite pieces because it was created out of a desperate place of wanting to live life from a deeper place of reality and no longer on the surface.

And the only way to do that is to be completely, brutally honest with myself. it has not been a pretty picture but it has been liberating .

Thank you for reading this and brace yourself for more to come. I am so excited about this New Year 5775 and all the open doors our God has opened and no man can close!

Akinyi Nafula Eesosa Rain

Reality of James 1:27

From Ann Voskamp Blog:

Because for such a time as now, we can testify the blazing epiphany of it: If you’re not able to give joyfully and sacrificially, that tells you there is something awry with you and God relationally.

Because for such a time as now, we’ve seen and we are now response-able and we’re ready to be done with having bloated building budgets while African mothers have bloated babies dying in their arms.

Because for such a time as now, we’ve fed on the feast Who is Christ Himself, and we’re ready to be done with ruining our appetites for God on the cardboard calories of cheap consumerism.

We’ve held our hands high on Sunday mornings and we’ve sang it loud that our Jesus is all we need, so we’re literally done with living ditty la-la-la lives and we’re ready to live The Aslan Roar of Real Disciples:

We don’t want comfort.
We want Christ who is comfort,
we want danger that defies safe so people get saved,
we want freedom that flies in the face of fear,
and we want justice that must rise at any cost, because Jesus has risen and He paid the unfathomable price.


😪😥….Lord I give you my heart in exchange for Yours

Dying to James 1:27

It’s been 11 months since I started my jubilee journey and God has blessed me to travel to three continents this year and to meet some amazing people. All I can do is say “thank you Jesus!”

Our LORD is so faithful. Words cannot explain how broken I am right now. This past Biblical year (New Year for me started 9/25/14) has been a year of self examination and allowing my mind to really search out my heart. I allowed the struggle to take place in my inner man.

I call it the James 1:27 transformation; becoming compassion, mercy and love, not just talking about it.

While in Nairobi Kenya in June & July 2014 visiting the orphanage I support, I fell deeper in love with God’s beautiful children. Please visit
http://www.happylifechildrenshome.com and see the amazing work Father is doing.

God also opened up a new ministry opportunity for me while in Kenya. The host home that I stayed in was the home of an amazing couple, Claxon and Carol Tudor. We instantly connected as Mother and children. It was like I had given birth to the both of them.

God has anointed them to rescue vulnerable girls under the age of 16 years old. They are presently rescuing girls from sex slavery in nearby villages. There are over 2000 girls who are total orphans. When I was introduced to this awesome ministry, my heart melted. I could hear God’s voice scream James 1:27 in my heart.

We have gotten approval for our own non-profit status in Kenya and I am the Vice President of James 1:27 Strategic Missions Kenya.

We have put a down payment on an acre of land because we MUST build a house where these precious girls can call home. The vision is to disciple them for Christ, teach them life skills, provide safe environment, education and showering them with God’s amazing love.

WE NEED YOUR HELP to pay the land off and start building the house. We NEED HELP NOW.

PLEASE go to http://www.GarnerPrayerFurnace.com and click on the “James 1:27″ tab, then click the “DONATE” button.

Pray that 100 lovers of Jesus donate $50 each.

Thank you so very much and please pray for my team and our precious girls




PATIENCE…….help Lord!

Patience is that which gives you the stability to become what God has ordained you to become. Patience is the best prescription for discouragement. Patience is a tremendous virtue. Patience will guide one through tough times with determination and a smile. But we must see our need for patience. When we begin to see our need for patience, we would also see the need to cry out to God everyday for help. It is only through Him that we can master the discipline of “being still and seeing the salvation of The Lord.”


Patience is confidence in demonstration; an assurance that all has to work out well no matter what. It is waiting with EXPECTATION. I have heard the word “expectation” a lot in this season os shifting and movement. I am learning rapidly that I NEED PATIENCE in order to EXPECT something great to happen. It seems like everything negative that can happen is happening. So much hate, division, death and destruction globally right now, yet our God is greater and we must know this deep down in our hearts.

But when what we see is totally contrary to what is promised to come, we have to honestly cry out to God that we need help. Help to see through His eyes.


Patience (waiting on God) is what makes us complete. True patience is developed through trails and tests as we wait for the promise of God Almighty to be fulfilled.


Rate Your Pain…..1-10

I have heard that request over 500 times in the past 4 weeks and I am tired of it.  

Living with Chronic pain and illness does something to your ability to respond the way people expect you to respond. There is no “normal”, there is only pain.

The pain scale has been predetermined by some unknown source and I find it quite annoying and unfair. In most cases the pain I endure is beyond 10, yet I am forced to keep my response within the guidelines of the invisible unknown source.  

Lately I have decided that I will not adhere to the pain scale of the invisible “pain management” source.  I rate my pain at 14, 15, 18 and sometimes 20….why? because it is what I AM REALLY FEELING as the blood vessels in my brain expand and pulsate, eyes go blur and vertigo takes over. Its definitely not a 10….not even close.  

Today, suddenly at 12:32pm; I cannot explain why, nor will I try.  After giving the blood thirsty lab person two tubes of blood and saying “thank you” because its the polite thing to do.  Its polite to say “thank you” to someone for forcing a long needle into my thick dark skin, which has amazing resistant consistency to it…….and watching my tired vein roll to the left and right, trying its best to dodge the needle.  Then “jackpot”, my vein finally surrenders, as I am thinking in my head “you know the routine Miss vein so calm done and be still”.  

Back to the suddenly……a sharp pain causally, without warning, invited itself into an area near my right rib cage and liver location. It quickly spread itself out across and down my entire torso and took over both legs within 7 minutes.  I tried my best to quickly get to my car before someone noticed that I was about to bend over and eventually lose my ability to walk on my painful legs. 

I made it to the car and thank God that my faithful BFF was my driver today. I slide down in the seat and I could hear voices in my head asking the question…..”whats your pain level?”  I literally started a two-way conversation in my head about rating my pain.  It was 10, 12, 14, 16, then 26!  As a tear rolled down my face, I closed my eyes and there He was…..my Comforter.


My pain level went from 26 to Deep Sleep.