My heavenly Father has me on this amazing journey and it is catapulting me into a relationship with Holy Spirit that I could have never orchestrated myself.  He is using the most amazing human beings to come alongside and articulate my Abba’s heart.  The earlier portion of 2015 was full of betrayal, heartbreak, deception and abandonment, but what the devil meant for bad God has truly make it all good.  The pain was worth it because it clear the path for me to see what His love really looks like when coming from His chosen vessels.

In His sovereignty He has reconciled a relationship with a very special person I have always admired and have missed her dearly.  Since talking and spending time catching up, it’s like we have not been absent from one another’s life for the past six years; Abba has simply merged our hearts together again with His Word being our common bond.  Today He used her to remind me who I am in Christ and to tell me the truth about where I am and where I should be.  It was definitely confirmation and the truth brought definition to the many dreams I have been having. I thank God for her spiritual maturity and her desire to see me overcome the past and press beyond the mess.  She is the type of person who can love and encourage you and not be jealous of you at all.  She literally thrives off the idea that people are being blessed and used by God.  And she is a giver for real.  I thank God for this journey and my beloved Sis and Friend.


There is more……Abba allowed me the awesome opportunity to reconnect with my beloved daughter (I hate the term step-daughter), who is 35 years old now.  I am no longer married to her Father, but I was her Mom for the majority of her teen years and I have missed her dearly.  I am so proud of her. She reluctantly joined the Air Force upon graduating High School per my persistence, and she excelled while serving.  She fell madly in love with Jesus and God has blessed her with an amazing husband and beautiful daughter. She is truly a godly woman and an example to many other young women. I look forward to flying out to CA and meeting my granddaughter and son-in-law. She reminded me this evening the role I played in her life. To God be the GLORY!

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Sometimes when we become entangled in situations with folk who really don’t like us and all we hear is their complaining, negativity and them taking and taking from us….we easily forget that we are special and that God can and will use us to make a difference in the lives of others.

I thank God for “His wind beneath my wings” right now.  It is truly a time to rise up and totally trust God to use us in the midst of the chaos in this wicked world.  We NEED to be surrounded by saints who are movers and shakers for the Kingdom, and not entertainers craving attention and applause.

My prayer is “LORD Jesus open our hearts to the new things You are doing and give us the grace to get rid of the old wine and the old wine skin.  Destroy the ungodly soul ties and destroy the lies we have been told.  Unveil our eyes to see the truth for what it is, regardless of who or what.  Thank You Lord, in Jesus Name”.

On Bloody knees,

Eseosa RainFire



God’s definition of what is beautiful is so far from what we believe beauty to be.
“How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the gospel of peace,Who bring glad tidings of good things!” Romans 10:15

There are definitive actions that accompany beautiful people in the sight of God. These actions speak volumes because everyone sees the fruit of their harvest.

The fruit of the righteous is a tree of life, And he who wins souls is wise. Prov 11:30

Beautiful people of God are wise BECAUSE they win souls…..selah. 

I have been so blessed the past 90 days because God sent five beautiful people into my life who are on the frontline being beautiful for the Kingdom.

They don’t know one another yet they have much in common and produce the same fruit that God’s word speaks about. 

They are beautiful people who spend precious time reaching out to the lost locally and globally. Their conversations are NEVER about self. They are so grateful and satisfied with God’s daily provision. 

Each of them speak the oracles of God’s word creating a thirst within me for His beauty to be evident in my life. Their example has fueled a greater fire for James 1:27 in my heart. 

I know God has these beautiful people in my life for a reason and that reason is to see their example and to imitate it. And God’s word is the foundation of their example. They simply live His word at all levels. 


Many of us are tired of “church going religious people” who do nothing beyond self. They spend time keeping others distracted and drained. 

God has given us all a mandate throughout His word and if we simply obeyed it, we would all be on one accord, with our flaws and all, yet growing in His grace. 

Isaiah 52:7 says it all…..
“How beautiful upon the mountains Are the feet of him who brings good news, Who proclaims peace, Who brings glad tidings of good things, Who proclaims salvation, Who says to Zion, “Your God reigns!

I see many believers this time of year getting excited about the state fair, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and preparing to glorify gluttony, yet they are DEAD when it comes to what matters to God the Father.  They have no knowledge of the Biblical Feasts and do nothing to honor the feasts. 

Matthew 9:37-38 says

Then He said to His disciples, “The harvest truly is plentiful, but the laborers are few. “Therefore pray the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into His harvest.

We need to pray and act! We must fight hard for the beautiful. The selfishness and carnality of this world is in the church and we first must recognize it, then destroy it with TRUTH.

Our actions must proceed our mouths. In other words, only speak if our actions clearly protray what GOD ALMIGHTY considers beautiful. 

Practical things we can do:

1. Pray daily for opportunity to communicate the Good News to the lost

2. Locate a stranger or two daily and be God’s light and tell him/her about Jesus

3. NEVER go to church with an empty vehicle; GO and pick up NEW souls to ride with you; disciple them 

4. Make your presence known throughout your entire neighborhood and community as God’s Ambassador 

5. If you disagree with God’s word on what is wise and beautiful, then disagree without discouraging others. Remain selfish, disobedient and quiet. 

On Bended Knees,

Eseosa Rain

My Beloved Mother Has Died

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I have been awake most of the night with thoughts of my 51 years with my Mother. I love the fact that she was a stay-at-home Mom of 6 kids, while Dad worked as a Merchaht Seaman. She wanted to take care of us full time and give us a running start at life by teaching us discipline, integrity, accountability, endurance, commitment and love.

Most assuredly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it produces much grain….John 12:24

This is the opportune time to produce much fruit as a result of my Mom teaching and living much fruit in our midst. I am a full time missionary to Africa because my Mom not only taught us to reach out beyond ourselves and to help those in severe need, but she lived it before us. There was no person in need within our community that she did not help if she found out they were in need.

She did not accept Christ until I was 13 years old, yet God graced her prior to salvation to love others and expect nothing in return because the poorest of the poor have nothing to give anyway.

She raised us to go to school, focus, obey authority and finish what you start. It was a given that we would all finish high school and leave home immediately thereafter and start our adult life. All six of us finished high school and started life and not one of us ever saw a jail cell or the other issues that so many families had to deal with. My Mom did not spare the rod —- amen!  She loved hard and loud.

She cooked everyday…..breakfast, lunch and dinner. Sunday meals were always special and delicious. She cleaned and washed clothes several times a week, allowing us time to focus on school. On Saturdays, we had to rise early and do the cleaning but she was right there with us, teaching us to do it correctly and thoroughly. THANK YOU MOM!

Her consistency and persistence raised six kids with impeccable work ethics; not one of us have remained on a job less than 10 years. Either we have retired or the three who still work have over 25 years of service to same company. Thank you Mom and Dad!

I am so honored and humbled to have carried on what I learned from my Mom and applied it in the raising of my son, Ian “Joshua” Walker. He is a man after God’s own heart and God blessed him with a Proverbs 31 woman and amazing daughter.

The legacy will move forward for generations to come, with an increasing flame for Jesus and a global mandate.

Celebrate with us as we prepare to committ my Mother’s body to the ground this week. Her spirit is with Jesus and rejoicing forevermore.

Sherry “EseosaRain”

Desperate For More…..

I am so desperate for more of God.  In the midst of perilous times we are living in, I find myself seeking the face of God with Holy desperation.  I want to be set apart, no longer looking like the world or desiring earthly satisfaction.

As I rise at 5am daily and cry out to God, I sense (and see) a great falling away in the Body of Christ.  What is disturbing is that many are still sitting in the pews (chairs), yet their hearts are far from Him. They desire to be seen with no fear of the living God. 

Yet there is a remnant of believers whom God is raising up who know what time it really is and are not afraid to declare “thus says the LORD”.  What we see happening throughout the globe is not about satan doing his thing, it’s about God revealing who really belong to Him. 

The desperate, hungry and thirsty believers are running to the streets declaring the Gospel of Christ as the only solution for a lost generation. They are not running to a stage entertaining already lukewarm Christians. 

There must be a holy cry of desperation in this hour! GOD IS NOT DEAD, HE IS ALIVE!!! We need more of Him. We NEED to live in His fullness. 

When a person truly encounter the love and saving grace of God, there is no way he or she can remain silent. The Apostles in book of Acts are proof of what it looks like to be filled with His Spirit.

Wake up church! Come out of the four walls entertaining each other and GO INTO ALL THE WORLD preaching the Gospel of the Kingdom. 

I pray for Desperation for God to fall upon and envelope believers everywhere. Today is the day!

Eseosa Rain

Super Saints are Deceived

The LORD is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves such as have a contrite spirit. Psalm 34:18

The sacrifices of GOD are a broken spirit. A broken and contrite heart–These O God, You will not despise.  Psalm 51:17

……..But on this one will I look; on him who is poor and of a contrite spirit, And who trembles at My word. Isaiah 66:2

Contrite means to feel pain, sorrow or regret for sins or offenses. 

Many are the afflictions of the righteous, But the LORD DELIVERS him out of them all. Psalm 34:19

The past few days have been difficult due to excruciating physical pain from my head to my toes. Initially I wanted to lie in bed and complain and second guess the perfect plans of my Abba.

Holy Spirit began to speak the above scriptures to me and I rejected them because I had  been so focused on the “super saints” who never experience a contrite heart, brokenness, or afflictions. I was thinking that something must be wrong with my relationship with the Lord. The more I focused on people who portray themselves as “problem” free, always have a ready prophetic word for others and always happy and exciting…..the farther away from the truth of God’s word I was becoming. 

This morning as I sat in my prayer/war room, Abba said “I am far from those who are never pruned because of their hypocrisy , pride and compromise”.

He told me to focus on His word if I want full truth. I looked at the above scriptures with new lenses and I had to confess my sins of doubt, idolatry and disobedience. 

I feel sorry for “perfect” and “affliction free” Christians.  They lack His nearness and reject seasons of real spiritual growth. 

This is a difficult week, but a blessed week. 

My prayer is that The LORD GOD would have mercy on us all. That the sincere men and women of God would rise up and testify to the goodness of our hardships and what God word says. 

If you always have it altogether, you don’t sin and never have trials or suffer persecution because of your faith, then you may want to check your salvation. 


When Others Sincerely Celebrate You….

Today was so special in so many ways.  First of all I was able to have my new home dedicated back to the Lord.  I truly thank God for what He has done.  It was ALL Him. But even more special and amazing to me was the fact that I looked up and realized I was surrounded by some wonderful people who truly loved me for me. They were sincerely celebrating with me and fueling the atmosphere with so much love. The live worship with Susan Valles was AMAZING! We felt God all over us. 

This is truly a new season (8/1/2015) and new beginning for myself and many others. The past few years I found myself surrounded by critical, jealous, broke, and life draining individuals.  The more I read God’s word the more I saw that this was not God’s will for His children. It was time to confess and repent and let God prune me. It has been painful but so necessary.

This new journey is exciting and I must trust God and remember His faithfulness over the years.

I am humbled and thanking God for the great people He has surrounded me with. I thank Him for Tiffany, my beloved daughter, being a great hostess today. She is so gifted. I thank God for Veronica Evans who performed a house dedication like I have never seen……wow! I thank God for Joshua and my other sons who did parking duties in order to respect my new neighbors. I thank Jesus for the wonderful, loving and generous guests who took the time to show up and spread God’s love. 



I am learning; daily I learn. 

I am learning surrender can be sweet when we abandon our agenda and simply let God be God.

God’s ways are amazing and cannot be controlled by man. Though we try but to no avail.

I believe frustration, stress and striving only exist when we cannot control our circumstances and when our idols are more desirable than God.

It is God’s TRUTH that exposes our inner motives. 

We try to hide but we cannot hide from God.

Surrender is inevitable when you love God and desire His Son Jesus as your LORD. 

Some carnal person once told me “do you”…….horrible advice.  The worst thing I could ever do is myself. I must die to me so that I can live for Him. 

Surrender is not about me at all; it’s about living in such a way where I am completely hidden in Christ. 

LORD help me to humble myself and surrender to you in all of my ways.


Bended on blistered knees