My Beloved Mother Has Died

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I have been awake most of the night with thoughts of my 51 years with my Mother. I love the fact that she was a stay-at-home Mom of 6 kids, while Dad worked as a Merchaht Seaman. She wanted to take care of us full time and give us a running start at life by teaching us discipline, integrity, accountability, endurance, commitment and love.

Most assuredly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it produces much grain….John 12:24

This is the opportune time to produce much fruit as a result of my Mom teaching and living much fruit in our midst. I am a full time missionary to Africa because my Mom not only taught us to reach out beyond ourselves and to help those in severe need, but she lived it before us. There was no person in need within our community that she did not help if she found out they were in need.

She did not accept Christ until I was 13 years old, yet God graced her prior to salvation to love others and expect nothing in return because the poorest of the poor have nothing to give anyway.

She raised us to go to school, focus, obey authority and finish what you start. It was a given that we would all finish high school and leave home immediately thereafter and start our adult life. All six of us finished high school and started life and not one of us ever saw a jail cell or the other issues that so many families had to deal with. My Mom did not spare the rod —- amen! ¬†She loved hard and loud.

She cooked everyday…..breakfast, lunch and dinner. Sunday meals were always special and delicious. She cleaned and washed clothes several times a week, allowing us time to focus on school. On Saturdays, we had to rise early and do the cleaning but she was right there with us, teaching us to do it correctly and thoroughly. THANK YOU MOM!

Her consistency and persistence raised six kids with impeccable work ethics; not one of us have remained on a job less than 10 years. Either we have retired or the three who still work have over 25 years of service to same company. Thank you Mom and Dad!

I am so honored and humbled to have carried on what I learned from my Mom and applied it in the raising of my son, Ian “Joshua” Walker. He is a man after God’s own heart and God blessed him with a Proverbs 31 woman and amazing daughter.

The legacy will move forward for generations to come, with an increasing flame for Jesus and a global mandate.

Celebrate with us as we prepare to committ my Mother’s body to the ground this week. Her spirit is with Jesus and rejoicing forevermore.

Sherry “EseosaRain”

Desperate For More…..

I am so desperate for more of God.  In the midst of perilous times we are living in, I find myself seeking the face of God with Holy desperation.  I want to be set apart, no longer looking like the world or desiring earthly satisfaction.

As I rise at 5am daily and cry out to God, I sense (and see) a great falling away in the Body of Christ.  What is disturbing is that many are still sitting in the pews (chairs), yet their hearts are far from Him. They desire to be seen with no fear of the living God. 

Yet there is a remnant of believers whom God is raising up who know what time it really is and are not afraid to declare “thus says the LORD”.  What we see happening throughout the globe is not about satan doing his thing, it’s about God revealing who really belong to Him. 

The desperate, hungry and thirsty believers are running to the streets declaring the Gospel of Christ as the only solution for a lost generation. They are not running to a stage entertaining already lukewarm Christians. 

There must be a holy cry of desperation in this hour! GOD IS NOT DEAD, HE IS ALIVE!!! We need more of Him. We NEED to live in His fullness. 

When a person truly encounter the love and saving grace of God, there is no way he or she can remain silent. The Apostles in book of Acts are proof of what it looks like to be filled with His Spirit.

Wake up church! Come out of the four walls entertaining each other and GO INTO ALL THE WORLD preaching the Gospel of the Kingdom. 

I pray for Desperation for God to fall upon and envelope believers everywhere. Today is the day!

Eseosa Rain

Super Saints are Deceived

The LORD is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves such as have a contrite spirit. Psalm 34:18

The sacrifices of GOD are a broken spirit. A broken and contrite heart–These O God, You will not despise.  Psalm 51:17

……..But on this one will I look; on him who is poor and of a contrite spirit, And who trembles at My word. Isaiah 66:2

Contrite means to feel pain, sorrow or regret for sins or offenses. 

Many are the afflictions of the righteous, But the LORD DELIVERS him out of them all. Psalm 34:19

The past few days have been difficult due to excruciating physical pain from my head to my toes. Initially I wanted to lie in bed and complain and second guess the perfect plans of my Abba.

Holy Spirit began to speak the above scriptures to me and I rejected them because I had  been so focused on the “super saints” who never experience a contrite heart, brokenness, or afflictions. I was thinking that something must be wrong with my relationship with the Lord. The more I focused on people who portray themselves as “problem” free, always have a ready prophetic word for others and always happy and exciting…..the farther away from the truth of God’s word I was becoming. 

This morning as I sat in my prayer/war room, Abba said “I am far from those who are never pruned because of their hypocrisy , pride and compromise”.

He told me to focus on His word if I want full truth. I looked at the above scriptures with new lenses and I had to confess my sins of doubt, idolatry and disobedience. 

I feel sorry for “perfect” and “affliction free” Christians.  They lack His nearness and reject seasons of real spiritual growth. 

This is a difficult week, but a blessed week. 

My prayer is that The LORD GOD would have mercy on us all. That the sincere men and women of God would rise up and testify to the goodness of our hardships and what God word says. 

If you always have it altogether, you don’t sin and never have trials or suffer persecution because of your faith, then you may want to check your salvation. 


When Others Sincerely Celebrate You….

Today was so special in so many ways.  First of all I was able to have my new home dedicated back to the Lord.  I truly thank God for what He has done.  It was ALL Him. But even more special and amazing to me was the fact that I looked up and realized I was surrounded by some wonderful people who truly loved me for me. They were sincerely celebrating with me and fueling the atmosphere with so much love. The live worship with Susan Valles was AMAZING! We felt God all over us. 

This is truly a new season (8/1/2015) and new beginning for myself and many others. The past few years I found myself surrounded by critical, jealous, broke, and life draining individuals.  The more I read God’s word the more I saw that this was not God’s will for His children. It was time to confess and repent and let God prune me. It has been painful but so necessary.

This new journey is exciting and I must trust God and remember His faithfulness over the years.

I am humbled and thanking God for the great people He has surrounded me with. I thank Him for Tiffany, my beloved daughter, being a great hostess today. She is so gifted. I thank God for Veronica Evans who performed a house dedication like I have never seen……wow! I thank God for Joshua and my other sons who did parking duties in order to respect my new neighbors. I thank Jesus for the wonderful, loving and generous guests who took the time to show up and spread God’s love. 



I am learning; daily I learn. 

I am learning surrender can be sweet when we abandon our agenda and simply let God be God.

God’s ways are amazing and cannot be controlled by man. Though we try but to no avail.

I believe frustration, stress and striving only exist when we cannot control our circumstances and when our idols are more desirable than God.

It is God’s TRUTH that exposes our inner motives. 

We try to hide but we cannot hide from God.

Surrender is inevitable when you love God and desire His Son Jesus as your LORD. 

Some carnal person once told me “do you”…….horrible advice.  The worst thing I could ever do is myself. I must die to me so that I can live for Him. 

Surrender is not about me at all; it’s about living in such a way where I am completely hidden in Christ. 

LORD help me to humble myself and surrender to you in all of my ways.


Bended on blistered knees

When Jehovah “Sneaky” Suddenly Shows Up and Out

The word Wow! seems to be my word for the past 30 days.  My God and my LORD showed up and showed out suddenly while I was lying on my bed afflicted with a TIA.  It was not on my radar after all He had guided me to do since 2012.  But it was obviously on His radar and in His plan. 

He sent me three different beautiful souls to tell me that He trusted me and knew I would obey Him.  Wow was all I could say and still saying. The fullness of what has happened has not hit me yet.  I sense a inner brewing of a crazy praise that will explode anytime and anywhere. 

On Tuesday, 7/14/2015, I received 5 keys to my brand new 4-bedroom home.  A home I could have never dreamed of because I was so at peace in my 13×11 room.  God has met me in my places of sacrifice and giving it all away in order to simply have Him.  In the midst of walking my journey of simplicity, I have endured serious physical illness and His grace has been amazing.  I have overcome the worst betrayal in my life this year and Abba has assured me it was necessary.  

In the midst of it all, I never saw this coming, nor asked for it. My greatest moments were in the red dirt of Kenya loving orphans and enjoying my massive Kenyan family.  I have been captivated by James 1:27.

I thank God for all the people He has sent my way to bless me with everything I need. I literally have nothing to go inside this beautiful home and He touched the builders heart to give me stainless steel refrigerator, washer, dryer and blinds throughout.  I was blessed with two Queen size beds.  People have prayed for me.  Its  been so surreal.  My son is painting my house with bright joyful colors. I am so humbled! 


And thank you to all of you.  My jubilee journey would not be the same without YOU. 

Humbled on Bended Knees,


What I Am Learning…..

What I learned this past week is that Jesus is always the answer.  His ways are amazing.  The fact that we cannot control His ways leaves us wanting more of His wisdom and knowledge.  Only if we love Him. 

What I love about being in my Jubilee years is that I get to look back and see how silly I was in so many areas of my life. Maturity has a way of unwrapping truth in a major way.  Truth about self, others and life.

One thing I know is that we are living the vapor every heartbeat and that wasting those precious heartbeats trying to be seen and applauded by other fragile human beings is really pointless.  I now see why Jesus taught us through His word to point people to GOD and GOD only.

Everything on this earth is fading fast; faster than we care to admit. We are so afraid of facing that reality so we move at a fast pace trying to be someone GOD did not create us to be.

We miss the beauty of who HE is because in our race to “no where”, we bypass what matters most……James 1:27.

I weep for my brethren in Christ, especially the Americans. As a whole we don’t have a clue. We really believe that following Christ is about going to a building and finding new ways to entertain broken humans. The majority of the spiritual gymnastics we do cannot be supported by God’s written word, so why do we waste time doing it? Because we are afraid to face the pitiful truth about our inability to control our own lives.

So we remain in sin but give it a new name such as “relevant”, “love”, “seeker friendly” and the list goes on. 

Our church buildings are full of entertaining dance teams, singers, musicians, magicians, poets, and actors/actresses…..who refuse to carry the Gospel to the streets like Jesus taught us. The Gospel is what pleases GOD!! Yet tickling one another’s flesh is what pleases us. 

Many pretend that His glory fills rooms when the popular worship song is sung….the truth is that God’s glory has not touched the earth in centuries because it would wipe out where ever it showed up….HE is that powerful. 

Deception is the easy and popular vitamin to take each morning so that we can remain blind to truth as American believers.  Yet our nation crumbles before our eyes because the saints are deceived and powerless and afraid to admit it, so let us continue to conjure up a new version of the Bible and avoid truth. Selah!!

Bending On Blistering Knees,

Eseosa Rain