His Grace 

Lead me in your truth and teach me, for you are the God of my salvation; for you I wait all the day long. Remember your mercy, O LORD, and your steadfast love, for they have been from of old. Remember not the sins of my youth or my transgressions; according to your steadfast love remember me, for the sake of your goodness, O LORD! Good and upright is the LORD; therefore he instructs sinners in the way. He leads the humble in what is right, and teaches the humble his way. All the paths of the LORD are steadfast love and faithfulness, for those who keep his covenant and his testimonies.— Psalm 25:5-10

Eyes That Scream Hope

The eyes of the Kenyan children scream hope as I find myself staring into them. 
Their pupils dance with joy and excitement.
Their smiles assures me of God’s amazing love for us.
As I preach God’s word, they sit on edges of their seat looking back and forth between my interpreter and myself. Grabbing the words of life out of the air.
So hopeful and utterly in love with Jesus. 
Their praise and dancing express their undeniable love for their Savior. 
There are four different languages in our midst but ONE LORD, ONE THING & ONE LOVE that matters. 
In the midst of so much lack their faith yet declares Jesus is The Way, The Truth and The Light!


God-Reality. God-Initiative. God-Provisions.

Simplicity is the reality of who God is;  God initiates simplicity so that we can hunger for God provision.  Matthew 6:25-26 (Message Version) says If you decide for God, living a life of God-worship, it follows that you don’t fuss about what’s on the table at mealtimes or whether the clothes in your closet are in fashion. There is far more to life than the food you put in your stomach, more to your outer appearance than  the clothes you hang on your body. Look at the birds, free and u fettered, not tied down to a job description, careless in the care of God. And you count far more to Him than birds. 



Yesterday we did not have electricity for the majority of the day and it was amazing to experience the laughter of one another………….why? No internet to pull our faces into our phones and other electronic gadgets that distract us from real human interaction. 

Communicating face-to-face removes some of our walls of self protection and open our hearts up to authentic grace infused relationships. 

A simple life with less stuff and more of God is a blessed life.  I am learning and growing by experiencing and intentionally removing the stuff and placing myself among the poorest.  I am tired of pretending I am not one of the rich young rulers, when my comforts reveal the opposite.  

This journey is not always easy but always necessary. I must go lower and lower so that He can be lifted higher and higher. 

God-Reality.     God-Initiative.  God-Provisions.

Wrecked By His Love In The Red Dirt Mud of Kenya


Then Jesus called a little child to Him, set Him in the midst of them and said, Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are CONVERTED and become as little children, you will by no means enter the Kingdom of Heaven. Therefore whoever HUMBLES himself as this little child is the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven.  Whoever receives one little child like this in My Name receives Me…..MATTHEW 18:2-5


I have been declaring Christ as my LORD for 27 years now and I have lived in many Nations and cities, serving  actively in many local churches, as a Pastor’s wife and eventually a Senior Pastor; only to finally realize that the fullness of who GOD is ……..is found in the heart of the children.  Found in the eyes of orphans and widows. Found in the tears of the poorest of the poor. Found in the cries of nations at war. 

Walking out James 1:27 has opened my eyes and heart to see God’s amazing love.  I am far from understanding all that Abba is revealing but I am so open and hungry for what He wants to do in the hearts of His remnant.  

Matthew 25 really shout out what God desire of us as believers.  It is not an option to feed the hungry, clothe the naked, visit those in prison, house the homeless and GO into all the world. 

It is when we reach beyond our comfort zones, our safe places, and our extreme selfishness that we see God’s goodness and glory. 

His amazing love comes to life! His presence surrounds those living in caves, trash dumps, boxes, sidewalks, etc.


Jesus, God in the flesh, had no place to lay His own head, no earthly treasures or selfishness.  Yet HE was the epitome of LOVE; God’s Love!  He was Love in the flesh, walking upon the earth, showing you and I how our lives must look as believers. 

God’s Love is pure and undefiled. 


It is only when we make a decision to simply pursue humility with the help of Holy Spirit and knock down our walls of self preservation and pride, and run in the direction of God’s vision as written in His word, that we truly encounter His love, His power, and His glory.



We woke up at 7am, still fighting jet lag, yet pressing on in the strength of Jesus.  I enjoyed watching my American sons drinking Kenyan coffee and eating Kenyan food with their hands. My heart leaps with joy to see them with Claxon, who is Kenyan, as he shares his roots with much pride and adoration. He is an historian at heart and loves his nation, in spite of all its issues.  

As we moved around the city of Nairobi to shop for clean water we could drink and other food items, my American sons seem to wonder why there were security guards searching us as we entered stores, businesses and shops. The reality of this being a terrorist pron nation really hit them. They are not use to seeing guards walking around with machine guns, assault rifles and machetes.  

We drove downtown and foundourselves surrounded by street boys, ranging ages 7-16, walking around with bottles of commercial grade glue stuck to their mouths for continuous sniffing. They are addicted and they need it to stay warm and avoid hunger pains. They live in dumps, caves, trash piles and under bridges. Their life span is five years once they become addicted. My American sons saw their first dead body just lying on the street; and it will remain there for couple of days as people walk by doing what they do. 


God granted us the opportunity to minister to a couple of boys who were willing to listen. They have hope of returning to school one day.  

We met a few Mothers with babies on their backs, walking and  begging  for money to get milk for babies, but really wanting glue. They would try to hide glue bottles under their sleeves as they beg. One Mother did not have any kids with her, she threw them away as she gave birth…..they were boys.  We loved her. We brought milk for baby Clinton , child of another young Mom. We loved them and prayed with them.


My heart aches with compassion.  I never knew that compassion could ache but it does. 

I say to my beloved brethren in Christ Jesus, rise up and either GO, SEND or DISOBEY God’s word. These are the only three choices for believers. His word is clear. 

“When the Son of Man comes in His glory, and all the holy angels with Him, then He will sit on the throne of His glory. All the nations will be gathered before Him, and He will separate them one from another, as a shepherd divides his sheep from the goats. And He will set the sheep on His right hand, but the goats on the left. Then the King will say to those on His right hand, Come, you blessed of My Father, inherit the Kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world: for I was hungry and you gave Me food; I was thirsty and you gave Me drink; I was a stranger and you took Me in; I was naked and you clothed Me; I was in prison and you came to Me.”   Matthew 25:31-36

And I challenge you to read verses 37-46 for the fullness of what our LORD is saying to us.

We have a lot of ground to cover this week, those of you who have been covering us, thank you and keep the prayers coming.  

Laying it all down for Him,

Eseosa Rain 

DOING ME = One Way Ticket To Hell

Originally posted on My Jubilee Journey:

I am definitely at a place in this journey called “life” where I want to actually live this life and not just exist.  I have existed for 49 years and when I turned 50 years old in 2013, something clicked within me and I realized that I was at my Jubilee and I never thought I would even reach the age of 30 years old due to multiple suicide attempts, self hatred and living a reckless life.

It is only by the grace of God and His unconditional love for me that I am still here; not only here but I actually care about how I live his life and whether or not I am bringing glory to His Holy Name each and every day.

I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord in 1991; however, the truth is that my heart did not convert until 2007 because I spent all…

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