Brokenheart BLOG

My heart bleeds blood drops of deep pain….why? Because someone thought it was okay to smash it with the sledgehammer of jealousy, deception, betrayal and lies.  It sucks! BUT GOD!

This is in the same season where my Messiah was betrayed so that I could receive eternal life.  That truth comforts me and gives me the grace to peel this onion of truth without fear of what other lies will be exposed. And other lies will crawl  out from within the cracks of deception and jealousy.


Jealousy in the life of a believer is one of the most deceptive and destructive tools of the enemy. God calls jealousy “fury or rage” in Proverbs 6:34. This suggest a “disease of madness,” an uncontrollable inner storm.  Cain’s uncontrollable inner storm caused him to kill his own brother, Abel, simply because his own brother loved and honored God from a pure heart.  Jealousy’s raging flame kills relationships.  Love is not jealous according to 1 Cor 13:4.

Jealousy is the opposite of trust and it does the work of hell, not Heaven.  God never leads us to leave a trail of “murdered bodies with blood dripping hearts” behind as we run deceptively into our “mind created” destinies.  Where envy and strife is, there will be confusion and every evil work.  Where whispers and accusations persist, a trail of death will follow.

Jealousy is a hidden rot of passion in the depth of our being.  It leads us to accuse others of what we know we are capable of ourselves.  Jealousy reveals an attitude of “I don’t trust myself; therefore I don’t trust others either.”  This is a truth we must all deal with within ourselves because at the core of it is sin.  Sin that can be justified through the lens of self-righteousness, pride and arrogance.

When jealous is not dealt with, it leads to demonic activity.  In Romans 1:29, Paul teaches that those who were turned over to reprobate minds were “full of envy”.  People get to the place of believing their own self-deceptive lies and totally ignore God’s word or even worse….they take His word and twist it to match their wicked actions, while betraying and murdering others in the progress.

In spite of popular belief, jealousy ALWAYS gives birth to the very thing many Christians say they would never do…..fornication, lust and adultery.  No one can be delivered from jealousy unless they recognize it for the deadly sin it is.  There must be confession of the sin……“yes I am jealous of so and so”.  James 5:16 says  “Confess your sins to one another…” .  However, those who have believed their own minds, own voice and voices of other deceptive people, will NEVER confess any flaws, weaknesses or sins of their own.  Yet, our God is willing and able to deliver.

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My heart bleeds and my Savior stands near in my Jubilee year.  In the midst of this brokenness and heartache, His loving hand will make my heart beat again.

Some of you have experienced betrayal and have grown tremendously because of it, please pray for me in the midst of this journey.  PLEASE…only pray if you fear GOD and know His word from Matthew-Revelation; so much truth is written to The Body of Christ within the pages of those GOD Inspired Books.

Living At The Foot of His Cross,

Eseosa Rain Fire


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