Today I stopped trying to be ‘someone’ for somebody who never thought of me as anyone appreciated and important to them. Inside I know the space I had for them is now crushed and broken..
Let truth be spoken… In time it will be for the best…although I feel an emptiness…knowing what I considered worthwhile..proved shallow and unreal.
I’ve learned sometimes emotions seem clearer than perception….and eventually can lead to a heartbreaking revelation that someone cherished proves that their friendship was in fact deception.
I cry tears of realization that once again I believed the lies that were in disguise and covered up… Honesty was masked with coy flattery. Why was I so darn naive?
I can and will move on…but I won’t forget I was forgotten and actually believed a lie. Not a lie out of the mouth…but of the heart.
That piece of friendship is now torn apart….
I mustn’t be sorry for the encouragement and love I shared…because I know what I offered was itself a dare. A dare to let someone be a part of me…who didn’t find a reason to care.
Moments like these are rare… moments that I feel what I felt to be ‘nothing’ now and bare.
Thanks for the lesson learned…and always remembered.